Cherish the "Old" Year

You have a year where you realize, this is one of the best years of your life. You have that moment where you stop and look, everything goes in slow motion and you see all the people around you. You take in the feeling, this will be the year I will remember for the rest of my life. 

Then you go on. 

You can't duplicate it or recreate it but you cherish it. No future is fore told on how this new year will turn out. But it can't top 2013, I'm hoping 2014 will run a close second with many more best years to come. 

Cherish the "Old" year and everything it has brought because it's never the end only the beginning. 

Happy New Year! 

Poetry Corner

I enjoy writing. Poetry has been a new favorite of mine to read and write. I have thoughts I'm constantly processing everyday writing them down or reading some else's words with the same issues is soothing. That being said, I am working a few new blog topics but in the mean time enjoy some poetry I wrote. 

There is a man

There is a man 

he is charming and cruel 

but he never admits it. 

Back and forth 

he will love endlessly, 

with hearts that are passionate. 

Turning minds 

with all his word play,

stealing hearts 

with his eye gaze. 

Smiling loudly 

for every person who makes him feel;

worthy, special, and talented. 

His charm 

is in no fashion 

to harm or hurt 

but to cherish and adore, 

whomever may be charmed at the moment. 

His cruelty 

doesn't come from 

anything he possesses, 

just the knowledge of 

the charmed that chose 

to be in his gaze. 

There is a man 

he is charming and cruel 

but he never intends it, 

trying to do what is right 

and what he feels 

with the whole world 

watching as he continues.

Prince Charming or A Cruel Man

Prince Charming is a character childhood movies put in to rescue the Princess. His physical attraction is built, athletic, manly face, sparkly smile and the eyes to make you melt.

                                                             Someone like him:

                                                     

When you grow up and have this fantasy of a Fairy Tale Prince Charming or Perfect Romantic Comedy Leading Man, you're shaken up at the idea neither of them exist. At least not in the format every little girl thinks of; these men in reality look perfect because of how they make the princess feel. How he makes her a better human being, how he challenges her, or just looks at her in all the imperfections. He doesn't have to slay, fight, or protect every threat. The Princess can defend herself too. Prince Charming needs to not be afraid of the Princess in her perfect or imperfect form, slaying one million dragons with one look that says "She's mine. There is no one better for me."

Prince Charming can have quite a few impostures one for example A Cruel Man. This man has all the aspects of Prince Charming, he fills you with promises, sweet notes, and loving intentions. Besides the fact that A Cruel Man does not have a white horse, shiny armor or roses; he does posess integrity, passion, and self worth. To be labeled as cruel one may think evil vilian but it's quite the opposite, this man is cruel because he is the real version of everything you never thought existed. 

A Cruel Man is reality and Prince Charming is an image. 

A man is just a man, not one man is perfect, cruel, or charming that's the beauty in all of them. A man has deep flaws, heartbreaks, and cherishingly twisted souls. Each man sees this image of perfection they must somehow live up too, we tend to envision them as our favorite leading movie men. The hype alone is unfair, comments like "God! I would love to have Ryan Gossling as my boyfriend." That must sting a little. Bob Marley. He pin points exactly what a man actually can give.  

"He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give."

A Cruel Man or Prince Charming? 

How about both.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

Wanted: Hope and Happiness

   

   There seems to be a pattern lately with life. Nothing is going according to plan. Everything we thought would stay good or bring light to our lives has brought a bit of a dark cloud. And it's at this time where things just suck, plain and simple. Sweet pleasures in life don't bring as much happiness as we thought; for instance a doughnut, Vanilla Ice's Ice Ice Baby, or a teenager transforming into a power ranger. The magic of life is fading as we go forward.  

Maybe not for the doughnut. 

Life is not predictable. A saying that has been said over and over but there are no harsh truths, no quick fixes, and no way out of living one. This life we have is a constant sucky, tragic, erotic, sad, pleasant, mistakable, beautiful adventure. Most of my friends, we are 20 somethings trying to patch together what answers we don't have about our future. When the scary part is... This is OUR future. OUR life. We have spent so much time fumbling through school and work, to actually sit back and look at what life you want or what life you deserve it's fucking scary. The possibilities are endless yet extremely limited and the next move is entirely your own. 

Knowing you have this super power (your future) and you ask the daring question: What am I going to do with it? 

-Read more 

-Make better plans with people 

- Spend all day on FB, Instagram, or Twitter

-Ponder thoughts

-Write more

*You know be productive and shit.* 

When finding these answers what gets lost in the transition is Hope and Happiness. We forget (at times) what our contribution to the world can be. Which is to make the world better by being happy hopeful people, seeing these dark and wasted times as a reminder of "It's never the end, only the beginning." 

A New Definition

I feel I should explain a bit before I go over board with a few thoughts gallivanting in my head and clogging up my everyday functioning in life. See for a creative person if you can't create or express what's in your mind for the outside world you basically go a bit insane. I can proudly say, I have! Only a tiny tinny bit. 

A lot has happened and it amazes me. Things can change in a day, an hour, or even a week; I've know of this "change happens" concept but to witness actually lives changing in front of you is a weird miracle. Some things physically don't change but your outlook does, for instance I wrote this a year ago:

"I need to be told a sentence again right after it has been said, I need to spell better, I need to learn to walk, I need to do a lot but instead I embrace all the flaws (or annoyances) and the things I am not. I let the things that I am be affected with positive influence, emotional inspiration, and reassuring indifference."  

These are all still very much part of my life, but what I'm most guilty of is not embracing any of them. I've been ashamed of them and let other people believe they are bad, even apologizing for them.
WE all have flaws, thats no award winning secret.

Flaws are what make us unique (again no secret) all of these imperfect aspects of our personalities; Should we really call them flaws? or did some smarty pants come up with that incorrect term.
Definition of a Flaw: A mark, fault, or other imperfection that mars a substance or object.
My favorite definition: A squall of wind; a short storm (Flatulence)
-Nouns: Fault, defect, blemish, short coming, imperfection
-Verbs: Crack, damage, spilt

To crack, damage, split:
When looking at those verbs, the first thought that comes to mind is a imperfection. Someone or something was labeled, defected or blemish. For example one time down the road in someone's life a person has been cracked, damaged, or split and has had a flaw put upon them, unknowing about this imperfection the person thought "This is who I am". Some people still hold onto the flaw given to them, being hassled by someone else's observational fault gets the most optimistic person down.
Until they realize...

Flaws are beautiful antidotes to anyones personality. Makes them a different individual who celebrates what talents or non talents they do or don't possess, that should be a definition of a flaw.

Flaw: A celebration of imperfections that you learn or deter from; but never hide, shame, disregard or apologize.

My flaws haven't changed they're still there I've just chosen to break them down into beautiful antidotes. Take pride in all of your squalls of wind or short storms and be sure to check your pants.